in my mind right now

i dont feel like writing...just need to scribble the voice inside my head on a piece of paper... y give me the interest but deny me of my opportunities...i screwed up today...i didn't mean to say that...i did but not in the sense in which you took it...i am back to the times where i saw myself helpless...i acted numb at times i should have reacted...am like that again...all i want is to see a happy face...nothing else...but at times i see the cold glaring eyes even though they don't really glare at me...its like i can see wats inside...am i responsible for it...damn...i need 3 lac in 3 months...or i should be 22...am i happy that i cant achieve it...it is a tough path anyway...it might lead to glory but the path is tough...i love to sit back and relax...but i have big dreams...but the dreams will remain dreams...perhaps i am ignoring the opportunities...am i in the midst of all those noises that obstructed the sound of the knock of that opportunity...or was i busy shouting about no one knocking at my door...did i miss it or was i denied of it...am i filling up the cup thinking how to empty it...why are these thoughts coming to me over and over again...i feel my mind has become a whore...impure and adulterated with things that haven't helped me so far...things are just getting worse every time there seems to be a hope of something good...every morning i wake up and hope for the worst...everything seems kinda good that day...am i happy in my negative energy...i might be..........................TCNQ9G93SAA7

Dont you ever call a man "an animal" to disgrace him...

A female leopard hunts a pregnant female baboon. While the leopard was dragging the baboon, the baboon delivers a baby. Leopard leaves the hunted mother and starts taking care of the newborn baboon. Watch this amazing video from National geographic.

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When the necessity is nasty...

Is it the greed for money or the greed for power? Either way the greed never stops. Some people were told the wrong things and they start to believe that what was told is right. Not exactly right, but sometimes they know that it is wrong but strongly believe that it is what is applicable or practical in this world. I know that I tend to curse mankind and life in most of my posts very often but it is because I start to see the cruel yet accepted characteristics of the present. People say that it is how it works or else you can’t survive. "Survival of the Fittest". How amazing? 4 words that describe the very basic need to live and is everything one needs to live. The parameters may change but the characteristics we have to develop to achieve those parameters remain the same. You can freeze time with reference to those parameters. Leaving them aside, there is a whole larger group of things or people who are considered weak because they are the ones who work hard to stand by for what they believe and can see even the most subtle aberration from those beliefs that the world is claiming to be the so called “basic necessity.” Now the weak cannot afford it at any cost. They can only sit back and watch the Drama cursing the performers and pretending to be a part of it. They curse because they know that they cannot be a part of it because they have to change to be a part of it. And they pretend because they would like to see themselves as the centre of attraction at least for once (a bubble reputation will do fine for them.) But all that happens is they get beaten up so bad again and again that they find out they are no longer learning but are failing miserably. Whereas the ones who do what they shouldn’t are going where they shouldn’t. The place which the weaklings think are reserved for them is crowded and overflowing, but not with them. They will only hope for the change and that change will occur if they strongly believe in it and direct them towards it. The change will come because life never deviates from its very basic principle "Happiness." Yeah, that is just one word and is applicable to everyone who really needs it. If you really need it, you will get it. If you still didn’t get it, you didn’t need it bad enough.
The more explicit version of this post is in my other blog. And that is for me… …Bye…Take care..See you in my next dark and gloomy post.

The Story Of Circles

A post I wanted to write long back but didn’t want to write it down due to some reasons. I was thinking of a way to write it in a form of a story. But I couldn’t frame characters and names. This is the story of circles. The post is not exactly a story but is my way of seeing invasions. When someone is born, they obviously enter the dreaded world, and he/she is given one powerful weapon. Now the thing is, some people don’t know that they have this weapon, some discover it very late, some never discover it and some see it very soon. Now the fact is that this weapon is invisible and so powerful that it could determine the path of a man’s life. For those who wonder if I am ever going to say what that weapon is, it is a circle.